.: As life continues :.

My final examination starts tomorrow. Hopefully this would be my last examination so that I can complete this MPharm program this June after I complete da short clinical research.

During my revision week, I went to study in IIUM Gombak library for a few times. My sister is also facing her end-of-sem exam. So we studied together.

I have 3 papers:

- Pharmacotherapeutics 2 (Apr 20th; Monday).
- Pharmacotherapeutics 3 (Apr 22nd; Wednesday).
- Pharmacotherapeutics 4 (Apr 24th; Friday).

Please pray for me..

P/S: This entry was scheduled to be published today. I’ve prepared this a few days back..

Finally, I’ve compiled da pics taken during my trip to Spore & Batam (refer to my entry Spore-Batam Trip on March 12th).

Tried to upload them to Facebook album but failed due to unknown reason. This is the sneak peak of the album. Maybe i’ll try to upload them all (100 pics more or less) after i finish my exam.

P/S: Can u see, my writing becomes shorter than usual? This is da style of writing during ‘exam-dah-dekat’ mode. Please bear with me.

Sara is Elina’s daughter. Elina Alias (a.k.a El or L) is one of my best friends during undergrad years. The last time i met her was during our convocation in 2006. And now she’s pregnant with her 2nd baby. I had da chance to meet her yesterday. She’s now working in Kuantan. Great! I’ll be seeing her more after this. Glad to have my friends around..

I wrote the entry Psychiatric on March 24th ’09. This is the second part.

I remember the time when i went to the female psychiatric ward again. Still as cautious as before, I browsed through the patient’s medical records to search for interesting cases. Suddenly, a voice stopped me. There was a chinese patient approaching me, with a magazine in Bahasa Melayu in her hand.

“Bole saya nak tanya sesuatu..?”

I was like.. Damn! Please don’t ask me something I don’t know…

“Apa maksudnya ini.. KALAU TAK DIPECAHKAN RUYUNG, MANAKAN DAPAT SAGUNYA ?”

“Ermm.. maksudnya.. kalau tak berusaha, takkan dapat hasilnya…”

“RUYUNG tu apa? Macam mana bentuknya?”

Owh..No! I’ve never thought of how a RUYUNG would look like.. Image of ruyung has never been stored in my memory.. *sigh*..

I couldn’t remember the ridiculous final answer I gave her. But she replied with a thanks and a smile on her face.

What did I do? I crawled walked out the area, slowly..while hoping that nobody heard that conversation.

I Googled, and finally found how a ruyung looks like from the blog Minda Bahasa.

I’m doing Psychiatric (elective) attachment. This is my final attachment before I finish my program..(Insha Allah..).

I went to the female psychiatric ward.. (didn’t have the courage to go to male ward). There were some patients who wandering around in the ward.. I believe they are those with mild symptoms. Otherwise, they would be restrained. I was doing my work at the sofa, facing the TV. And there was this girl (a patient) sitting beside me. She was eyeing me curiously..while I was afraid sitting there & hoping that she won’t ask me anything.. as I don’t know how to respond appropriately. And thank God she continued to watch TV peacefully beside me..and I managed to watch TV as well continue my work.

I think the picture I put above might reflect my condition now. Quite depressed. Having to undergo my current attachment (Psychiatric) but still working on my previous attachment (Pediatrics). I’m preparing for the delayed pediatrics major presentation as I was still warded when others presented their cases. And final exam is in April! Oh my..

I always imagine this:

- There’s one THING I wholeheartedly want, but i cannot afford to have it now.

- When I go to the shop, I keep eyeing the THING admiringly through the display glass.

- I keep asking the salesperson on the price of the THING (though I know it won’t change much everytime I ask).

- I put the THING as the Num. 1 item in my wish list.

- I know that I have to put aside a lot of $ to get the THING. So sometimes I wish there’s someone kind enough to surprise me by showing up with the THING as a present for me! (Yea..I know. Keep on dreaming, Syahiera).

- I wonder how it feels then; the thrill, the pleasure, the happiness, the euphoria, the contentment and the gratefulness.

But today, I don’t have to think and wonder anymore.

Cause I already know the feeling..